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You Can Definitely Spot a Liar

Maybe you have good instincts. Or maybe you just have a lot of experience with liars. Either way, it's pretty hard for someone to pull a fast one on you. You're like a human lie detector.

Can You Spot a Liar?

AND THIS ONE IS FOR YIYUN. (:
" LIAR!"

Mindless trash talk.

6.40a.m. - I am in school uniform and preparing to go to school.
"WHY ARE YOU IN SCHOOL UNIFORM?GO BACK TO SLEEP NOW.I TOLD YOU
THAT YOU'RE NOT GOING TO SCHOOL RIGHT?!"

It's 9.46a.m. now.
I have just:

Read Unbelivable, Pretty Little Liars.
Revisited the old high school heroes blog, last dated: Febuary 14.
Eaten Pandan bread.
Took my medicine.

I got my phone confiscated again.
Juno is the best show ever, I am going to buy a hamburger phone.

You won't notice me for anything,would you?
That's why I'm quite done here trying.

frosted glass on my attic room window.

Farewell contemplative hours and seconds.
It does'nt make me feel any better,
It never had.
I want to die, to live.

It's been- wonderfuuuuuul.

The first and the last picture looks rather peculiar, my apologies.( It's actually you looking peculiar, not me.) (:

I shall not try to get sentimental here, or whatever.

But,

happy birthday you.


I have not bloody started on my Geog revision and it's 8.09p.m. ( You so owe me one.)

So here's thanks with many laughs,memories and all of that hugs.

For-

"YOU'RE THE BLOODY BEST!" It started everything.

Science lab partners, I know you don't remember but there was it was one of the really science lab lessons we had together where I had to throw down your pencilcase from the stairs.We were laughing our heads off though we were almost complete strangers.

BBF-ing and such, Letterbooks, rantings, late night and early morning smses, counselling sessions, 17th and the 29th, blood,sweat and tears. (There were some.)

June Class paintings, Hwee gek and Miss Chan, being 17th and 18th for Sports Day, awful fights, temperaments and vulnerability.
I already wrote too much on your cards, so this would have to do.
Happy birthday, I'm sure this birthday has been the best one as yet.
(:

We know we love each other. <3

Wipe those tears away.

I feel mindless and broken.
I feel worse than fuck.
Whatever it means.

Because big girls don't cry.

Yes, hello.

The toilet is my new home.
Stomach aches are my new routine.
Medicated oil is my oxygen.
I hate diarrhoea,
I hate gastric ulcers that don't go away,
I hate it that I can't study for more then 10 minutes without rushing to the toilet.
I hate it that it feels like I'm in constant labour,
Though clearly I'm not pregnant.
I hate it that I have to eat porridge when everyone else isn't,
It hurts so bad,
Crying doesnt actually help.
I hate it.
I hate it,
Really, really hate it.

Hello.
My medicine is currently working and not about the wear off soon so I shall just be a little less sadistic. (:
School is quite un fulfulling now.

I survived the crash.
Survived the burn.
Survived the worst, but I learned.
Survived the lies.
Survived the blues.
Almost killed me, but I survived the truth.
And when you wrote me off like I was doomed.
I survived you.

nothing post-worthy today.

Endings were never better than beginings.

bastard-ised.

It's pretty stupid the way I'm falling for you;
Really,
You're pretty stupid actually.

WeiSze was being 'smart', quoted by her, for being such an ass a nice girl for painting on her art worksheet first before sending it to me.
And I had already told her beforehand not to paint first.

"Uhhhhhhhh.Sorry lah, I was distracted."

So I had to slowly use paint and paint the whole thing white.
Not the real paint, the computer paint.
My fingers were really,really sore.

Screaming random shit on empty roads are really cool.
"________ THIS IS FOR YOU!H______ B_______!I LOVEEEEE YOUUUUU!"
You should know better.

(:

There's this weird empty feeling that won't go away.

FLUROESCENT ADOLESCENT.

HELLO WORLD.

Yiyun here, helping Yiting to post since she is playing quite happily with my unstraight ruler. :D

I love Tan Yi Ting.

"LIAR," Yiting echoes in my ear but I just shove her away in her wheel-y-chair and she spins across the room in a blur of screams, white-green and red (my ruler). Oh, and flying hair.

water lilies = spider lilies = AHEM.

headaches.

Could you look me in the eye, and tell me that youre happy now?

Yes, weisze.

I miss you soooooooo much.

(:

I had a scary dream about Red Cross last night.

HAHAHAA.

It's like I just woke up.

I was sleeping, when that brother of mine decided to fiddle with my phone, only to find out he had taken a photo of me.

I was supposed to be studying, but turned out.

(:

anyway, i'm still pissed i missed cross country/zany parade.

I woke up at 5.45am to meet Divya when my diarrhoea decided to work up again.

I had to go to the toilet like many,many times.

Had to rush home from the MRT.

Fuck it.

Just woke up, ate porridge.

I have nothing more to do now.

I have found a new and disgusting way of swallowing tablets.

My father said it was my grandmother's method.

HAHA.

Just drop the tablet into your throat and shove it in.

(:

I am not going to study Geog.

I am not going to study Geog.

I am not going to study Geog.

I am not going to study Geog.

I am not going to study Geog.

So much for that,

I AM going to study Geog.

Everyone's going out and having fun now and I'm stuck here doing nothing.

Ugh.

>:(

Just so you know.

recollected.

You're a year older,

We're a year wiser-

Just a little longer apart.

Happy birthday you,

I know I'm three days late-

But,

Happy Birthday indeed.

Today my brother was trying to play table tennis with the wall-

"I bet the wall's winning."

And then on Friday after Red Cross,

We were singing in the train.

"TONIGHT I'VE FALLEN AND I CAN'T GET UP."

And just the middle finger was left.

HAHA.

And the seventh thing I hate the most that you do,

You make me love you.

OH,OH.I forgot.

hahaa.

Friday was the best,

I sat beside Takano Kenji in the bus.

(:

" EHHHH.YITING!LET YOGGA SIT BESIDE HIM LAH."

(:

Sathrin insisted when I walked passed the three idiotic Chung Cheng-ers, they were checking me out.

HAHA.

I am already missing school, and it's only Sunday.

(:

Vaish taught me how to make yogurt today.

Actually her mum did, but what the heck.

I miss Kimbo.

(:

Yesterday was spent watching this Korean drama,

I was crying and tearing, and crying and tearing.

My insensitive brother of mine decided to laugh at me continuously.

"OH MY GODDDD.EVERYBODY LOOOOOOOOOOOK!SHE'S CRYYYYYYYYYYINGGGG."

If he was a girl, I'll scream "bitch" but you know.

WEISZE; a thousand times over says:
i shall now rant about yesterday (:

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. says:
i shall sleep.

WEISZE; a thousand times over says:
i thought you wanted to know what happened what

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. says:
uh, i was being nice.

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. says:
(:

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. says:
FINE LAH.

WEISZE; a thousand times over says:
oh, shuddup

I don't care what they say, I'm in love with you. says:
you can start now.

Just don't leave me in this rain.

i like talking to Jia Yi. (:

i like yellow paintbrushes.

Today was contemplative.
It's just that there's so much turmoil, thoughts and feelings;
it's impossible to get it all down,
or sort it out.
But I guess we're all learning.
Told you today was contemplative,
I'm spouting rubbish of thoughts.

Stayed up watching Miss Universe,
ended up to quite a waste of time-
Miss USA fell.
Second time in two years;
funny stuff.

UGHGUGHGGHUGH.
I dont know what's wrong with me,
I think I need a hug.
Yes,
that's exactly what I need.
Oh,well.

Video-calling is funny.
Pasta Mania is nice.
I'm feeling feelingless now.
You can't feel feelingless,
Because feelingless would just be a feeling.

Oh,
I better shut up soon.
or better yet-
now.

I need Panadol.
(:

There is no such word, anyway.

she talks like summer and walks like rain-

Couldnt sleep till 3.30am last night-
typical.
I have apparently passed my fever to WeiSze.
(:

I had to repay her in some way.
(:

Me and Kimbo are obsessed with chickens, enough said.

Yesterday while eating dinner Den called-
She demanded to know how the starting of "Start of Something New" sounded like.
Luckily for her,
I memorise all High School Musical lyrics.
HAHA.
Yes, I was kidding.

(:

Have to go take my antibiotics again, those huge tablets does nothing but scare me.

Becuase, I'm sorry.

syndrome.

Today some of my parents old friends came to visit my parents, so during lunch-
" You see I knew all of them since Secondary school through the..."
" ...Internet!"

My brother is such an ass.
(:

Nothing much to talk about.
I want to cut off my throat and my nose because they are killing me.
Literally.
(cough, sneeze,cough,wheeze)
Living sanely is becoming a chore of the late.
Antibiotics totally have shitty side effects I cannot cope with.
I have slept so much for the past 3 days, my body refuses to sleep anymore.

Yesterday-

Saiybah was fuming because she had to say my lines.
(:

"Purposely lah you. I have to say the HETEROSEXUAL,HOMOSEXUAL,BISEXUAL SEXUAL INTERCOURSE "part.
"Hah."

C-

You know, I get it already.
I know I'll never be good enough, even if i tried.
Sometimes-
After it goes on for so long,
I cant help just not caring anymore,
To be apathetic to whatever you say,
And I told myself that if I ever see you die,
I wont shed a tear,
because some are just more undeserving than others.
That's you,
for example.
I don't want another chance to prove myself,
simply because there's nothing to prove.
It's this everyday affair,
my marks, my friends, everything of mine.
It's like I disgust you.
Well, since it looks that way-
You should have never bothered, you know.
I've given up,
thought you would have liked to know that.
I've given up on everything that ever exsisted between us,
Becuase I just can't keep track of all of these bullshit that's happening.
Really,
It's not me,
It's you.

inspirational. (kinda, anyhow.)

Yes, there's more to go.

(:

It never was, and never will be.

And there she goes, there she goes again.

So anyway, I CUT MY HAIR. All by myself. (: It doesnt look awful, about 5cm off my fringe. And then today I feel sick, like 39 degrees sick. Couldnt walk properly, all of that virus shit.

" If the fever continues on, you have to go for a blood test to see if you have Dengue Fever."

Oh, wonderful. I have spent the whole of today just sleeping and eating medicine, nothing else registers anymore.

Everything means nothing, if I ain't got you.

Yesterday was fun, especially the part where me and Kimbo buys the egg things, where her egg will turn into a chick, mine- a frog into a prince. (:

I love days after exams.

teenage love affair.

there are many,many more actually, but these are the nicer looking ones. (:

inthepink.

i loveeeee soon weisze. :D

though I didn't thank you personally over the phone, (you didnt pick up, anyway) THANK YOU. (: I have just realised it's many,many,many pages.some of which i didnt actually print out because I didnt want to waste ink, and some I got correct anyway,
BUT ANYHOW, THANKYOU. (:
thanks for last night too, even if you didnt know it-
you can cheer me up pretty good.
i know you'll always be there for me, and i love you for that.
<3

I have been studying like a slave since 10.30am today, non-stop.
I have chucked my mouth with chocolate to keep me going and stay alive.
I have no idea what the hell acids/alkalis/chemical matter/shit is going on.
Help me.

wildnights.

vivalavida.

i have been studying.
A pity, no much though.
Had fun yesterday at the farewell.
(:

Swinging on swings, hiding in a room filled with (glow-in-the-dark) stars, Lord Of the Rings.
Other then that-
I'm just pretty much sitting my hot roof tiles and hiding whenever any passerby walks by in fear of thinking that I'm suicidal.
It happened before.

"EH, GIRL.WHAT YOU DOING ON YOUR ROOF?YOU WANT TO JUMP DOWN ARH?"

Shut up.
(:

I am currently having nightmares of simultaneous equations.
(:

All I see is XXXXXX ------ (1)
XXXXXX-------(2)

HELP.
(:

it's not like I didnt love you.
i just dont anymore.

Printedheartsonpinkpaper.

Millions of pictures to upload,
time isnt on my side nowadays.

daydream.

If it's a broken part,
then replace it.
If it's a broken arm,
then brace it.
If it's a broken heart,
then face it.

Today wasnt so bad.
Well, some parts of it anyway.
Survival cooking is-
interesting.
(:

Toothpaste, smoke and leaves.

I want you and your beautiful soul;

I really like ANTM.
(:

I dont like Tyra Banks, whatever it is.

Can't think of anything else, except probably that I really miss Thursdays.
I'm over you, you bastard.
NO, im not.
OH YES, YOU ARE.
(:

I think I suck at having stable relationships with anyone,
or maybe it's just that everyone's slightly PMS-ing,
I dont know.
I hate hormonal years.

scribbles in white pen, on a black paper.

It's the feeling of trying to cry-
but the tears just don't seem fall.
They just don't know how it feels.

So I say;

every bloody thing is not fucking perfect-
everytime i pick myself up i just fall down again,
it's like this endless pit youre stuck in;
you wanna get up but somehow everything just drags you down again.
fuck yesterday,today and tomorrow.
just fuck it.

On to other things-
I owe too many people too many letters;
i dont feel like posting anymore.
I feel like crap.

I FUCKING FEEL LIKE CRAP.
I dont want tomorrow to come,
I really really dont.
It's the feeling in your stomach that tells you nothing lies ahead of you except fucking shit.

Just when you learned the game of life
All the rules change overnight
Whoa, whoa go figure
It seems so wrong to even try
But taking a chance never felt so right
Whoa, whoa go figure
You have a dream
You wanna be
The center of the story
Just when you think it's gone
You find a way to keep it going on
Sometimes you fall before you fly
Sometimes you laugh when you should cry
Go figure
When things got messed up
You wanted to give up
Nothing seemed right but turned out fine
Go figure, go figure
Whoa, whoa

It's not like Im trying to be emo,
Or dwindle in my misery.
I just like keeping things to myself and hiding it so well-
no one notices.
And somehow,
I just like it that way.